I feel much better today than I did last night. The day was manageable. It seems I finally have some time and space to think.

I'm trying to come to terms with my shyness. It's a part of who I am, but it's not the biggest part of me. There are some things I need to work on, though, I will admit to that. It seems that shyness holds me back from a lot of things, to the point where I won't apply for a job because I don't want to have to ask for letters of recommendation. At some point I know I'm going to have to do this, but does that point have to be now? Yeah, this is a big problem.