I have been writing a lot lately, but not in this blog, in my paper journal and my other private blog. Mostly long rants, thinking about what I want to do in the future. I've been debating staying in grad school. Yesterday I was ready to quit, today I'm not so sure. I'm so confused and really scared. I know what my heart is telling me to do, but the world can be cold and harsh and unpredictable, and that makes me want to keep going in something I can be sure of.
I wanted to talk to my mom about it but she is going out tonight- again. That makes me really angry. I know I'm 21 now but I still need my mom sometimes.